July 4, 2005
Stay
[ Cueshe ]
I believewe shouldnt let the moment pass us by
life’s too shortwe shouldnt wait for the water to run dry
think about it cause we only have one shot at destiny
all im asking could it possibly be you and me?
So if you’d still go, i’ll understand
would you give me something just to hold on to?
and if you’ll stay, ill hold your hand
cause im truly, madly, crazily in love with you
Time has come for us to go our separate ways
God forbid But my mind is going crazy today
i feel so cold feel so numb
im having nightmares but im awake
Help me lord Fight this loneliness
Take this pain away
So if you’d still go, i’ll understand
would you give me something just to hold on to?
and if you’ll stay, ill hold your hand
cause im truly, madly, crazily in love with you
Now that you’re gone, im all alone
im still hoping that you would come back home
dont care how long, but im willing to wait
Cause im truly, madly, crazily in love with you
Hi!
Adventures of love life ang isusulat ko kc natatamad na akong magbigay ng komento sa mga bagay na nangyayari sa paligid ko…
C u in 2007…
Those were his last text…with a smiley face and the word “ingat”. I am giving him two months, if he will not do anything to make me feel his presence through text or phone call, I’ll probably consider those last words as act of politeness.
I asked my friend to investigate whether his cellphone no. was activated for roaming services. And after a few minutes, my friend was positive that his no. was activated. From this information, I know that he has with him his sim card, so he knows what my no. is. So this would only mean that he has all the means to keep in touch.
I like him. That is what I am sure right now. I am hoping that he has not told anyone any of the stupid and obvious text messages I sent him. I am hoping that when I visit my hometown, not any of his friends will say anything about or even joke about it.
There are so many things that can happen in two years. By that time, hopefully I am on my final year in medskul. That I’m probably having my internship already. I am not sure whether by that time I’ll be attached to a serious relationship. Hopefully that’s the case. Or maybe we’ll be in special relationship by that time. I prefer the later. Because if ever that happens, it means that the two years that we were apart, we were able to give meaning to our friendship despite the distance. I also think, that it would also mean an exciting two years for both of us. But this would only happen if kuya Jess would allow it. Hopefully that will be the case.
So why am I giving a two month due date. Because this would mean that I can fully entertain the possibility and open my doors to other guys only after the two months period. So this today is July 4, two months would mean…September 4, 2005.
I just hope that we will both have a wonderful two years. I am hoping and praying that I will be able to handle all the pressures and demands of my chosen field. And I am also hoping and praying that he will be able to finish his contract at Saudi. That loneliness and the feeling of being homesick, would not make him not finish his job. And I am praying also that he will be safe and healthy everyday of his stay there. I am also hoping that his employment would not be affected of the declining status of the world economy. And I pray also that the place where he is right now will be safe from all the treats of bombings and terrorism.
Thank you Kuya Jess for this light feeling of a pseudo love… I don’t know how to call it but I like the calmness it brings me.
Thank you!
