nalulungkot ako

nalulungkot ako

ewan ko ba. kj nawawalan ng gana sa laht ng bagay

alam ko na may dapat ayusin sa buhay ko pero parang ayaw ko simulan
tamad na tamad akong magsimula at gawin ang dapat gawin

ayusen ang dapat ayusin

ngayong araw na iti, i choose to live for myself

i choose to do things because i think na yun ang dapat ko gawin.

hangang 12 midnight gagawin ko ang mga bagay na maiisip ko na makakpag pasaya sa akin

pero pag may duda ako hindi ko itutuloy

=)

nothin much to say

nothin much left to say

i said my part

gud that he knows
masaya kc malaya na ako sa mga damdaming pilit na kumukulong sa akin

i just said my piece

up to you to react or do something or do nothin about it

the decision to make is yours
do what you think is fair, for you anf for me.

thanks but no thanks

something new is about to come in my life....

first time in history of my life na magkakaroon ako ng pet dog at excited ako sobra

para siyang bagong baby

isa ciang gift from a friend and i like it.
and excitedna ako ipa vaccine cia, maghanap ng karton para tirahan nia, mag prepare ng milk nia hehehe

kahet na weekends lang ako asa bahay, na excite ako

sana alagaan cia ng kapatid ko =)

bibile ren ako ng dog belt

madumi daw cia kase lalaki

wala ako paki kase hinde naman ako mag lilinis eh hahaha tamad

masaya lang =)

its more than just doubt

ganun ata talaga.
hinde siya basta basta nawawala. mahirap siya na pawiin.

sobrang na miss na kita. pero sobrang inis na inis na ren ako seyo dahil wala akong idea sa kung ano ang nangyayare sa iyo.
mahirap ang sitwasyon ko umaasa sa bawat hakbang na gagawin mo. nag aabaang sa kung ano ang susunod kong gagawain.
hanggang ngayon nahihirapan pa den ako. we need to put things at rest

or kung one way man ang lahat ng ito, dapat ko na siguro ipahinga ang idea of
"us"

i need to let go. god help me. i need to separate myself from you. i need to get a way and get a new life
i need to be more than just your option. or i rather not be one of your options.

i want to be just the plain someone that my future partner wants to be with. maybe not all the time but at least he will be able to make me feel that he needs me and he wants to be with me

ayoko na . ang mushy na. pagod na ako. sawa na ako.

sana hindi ka na lang ulit mag text. bahala na lang ako sa sarili ko.

iisip ako nag paraan para mapalipas ang lahat ng ito

pero galit ako sa iyo. at gagawa ren ako ng paraan na maiparamdam sa iyo na galit na ako

feeling ko yun ang dapat. because all this time ramdam ko you take things for granted. you don't take me seriously. you thought you just cant get away with everything. pero this time, i'm really tired. pagod na ako

sawa na ako. hinid na nga ako naiiyak. nag sasawa na ren ako.

bahala na bukas o sa isang araw. bahala na pag nag text ka. bahala na.

doubt is good

doubt is good

doubt makes you year for the answers to the questions that bothers you a lot.

mahirap. masyado akong paranoid

masyado akong nag-iisip, masyado akong nag duda

why are you keeping? are you keeping for the wrong reasons? i hope not. i really hope not.

are you keeping me just because you know that i can't let go of you , of us?

do iwant to be with you, but o f course.
do i want feel your embrace, but of course
do want to be in your arms, but of course

but i don't want younot being consistent.

i don't like you being such a mystery to solve
i don't like keeping me hanging, just hanging there and not doing anything about us...


we are ok. but the questions that need to be answer, is until when are we gonna be ok?

when will be the time that we are gonna talk about this. about us.

because i'm tired. i'm really really tired.

and i don't like going around in circles.

pabalek balek lang tayo katulad ng dati. katulad ng dati.

hangang kelan ito. gusto kong matahimik.

i want to keep you, but i don't like this bouts of doubt that haunts me every time your not being consistent. i don't like these intermittent episodes of worrying and doubting, if tomorrow you will still be there. i don't want to rush you if you still don't want to talk. i don't want to push the idea of talking, because i dont want to scare you away. i want to keep you for now

pero

ewan.

basta andun yung doubt.

andun lang siya

sana magawan mo ng paraan. sana magawan natin ng paraan.