baclaran trip

magsisimba tayo sa baclaran.
doon taos pusong magdadasal
magsisisndi ng kandila
makikiusap sa bathala

hindi ko alam kung bakit doon tayo pupunta
ang iniisip ko lang sana'y maging masaya
huwag namn sanang maging isang bad trip
ang ating baclaran trip

matatahimik lang ako
kapag lumipas na ang sabado
ewan, sana may saysay
sana ay may kulay

sana ang lahat ng ito ay maging totoo
sana hindi maging panagip na todo

happy birthday!

hapi bday to me!

masaya ako. i feel contented sa buhay ko.

thankful for my family, thankful for my friends.

thankful for every blessings that come my way

thanks kuya jesS!

masaya dapat bukas!

masaya bukas!

kahet ano mangyare.

i'll be celebrating my bday in advance. magluluto ako ng pasta and bibile ako ng pizza para masarap and dinner.

tapos may wine pa na dadalen c don. astig!

m celebrating 23 years of a wonderful life and adventurous love life!

yahoo! yipeee! yeheey! huray!!!!!!!!!!!

hahahaha!

back to square one...

walang akong pakialam sa kung ano man ang maririnig ko sa mga tao sa paligid ko.

walang akong pakialam kung nahihiya ka o natotorpe ka.

problema mo iyon, kaya wag mo akong idamay!

i have to stick to my decision. i really can't wait for you.

though i like you still, i just hope you know i can't be around, can't be free forever. i am sorry.

i like you and i know you like me too. but please do something about it...

i hope you can do something about it.

i might be waiting or i rather not

but please...

i love myself more!

he is not that into me!

enough said.

i guess this is where i stop making excuses for him. I like it this way. It is so liberating.
officially i am now free from waiting for that someone to notice me again.

i know what i want. and i think i cannot get that by waiting for him. he cannot give it to me, so i have to move on.

good for me.

you may have like me, yet still your liking me is still not that big for you to be that into me. I still like you, but i love myself more. so i have to free myself from the hassle of again falling into somemone not gonna be able to return that feeling. i don't hate you for not liking me back or liking me as much as i like you. i know i just have to stop hoping for something that is not happening.

all that i want to say is thank you, at least you acknowledge me.

remember, i don't hate you, nor have regrets on all the things i have done. It would have been nice if we did try, but i think you will not try. I am not bitter about the situation.

You see, this not about you. I just have to move on because i realize that i love myself more.

I am free so don't worry about me.

ang hirap maka konek

i have been trying to connect to the internet for the last two hours through a dial up modem sa apartment, pero i have finally given up.

lumabas ako at pumasok sa isa sa mga internet shop.
bwist. bago pa naman ung internet card ko.

ang hirap maka connect, mas madalas na busy

parang pag konek din yan sa tao
mas madalas busy ang taong kausap mo kaya mahirap minsan magkonek ang usapan nyo.
minsan kahit anong paghahanda ang gawen mo, pag praktisan man ang mga linyang sasabihen ay mawawalan paren ng saysay dahil ang mismong taong kausap ay nanatiling sarado ang utak.

bwisit. nakakaubos oras. nakakapagod.
eh pano kaya kung ako naman ang busy o sarado ang utak.
bakit kailangan ako lang ang nakikibagay.

hmmm. ano nga kaya?

hindi ko ata kaya...hindi ko kayang magpakababa tulad nila.
iisipin ko na lang na ako ang normal.
gagwin ko lang ang tama
hindi aasang magbabago sila

bahala na. bahala na.

to forgive or not to forgive

forgiveness ang gospel kanina.

m not sure i am good at this.

ika nga ng isang comercial, " to fogive, of course, to forget mahirap but i'm trying"

that is how exaclty i am everytime i need to forgive someone. Madaling sabihen pero mahirap kalimutan.

forgetting is a big chunk of forgiveness. one cannot say they have forgiven if one cannot have not fully forgotten that specific act or wrongdoing.
our memory has always been our greatest enemy, it never failed to remind us the details of certain act and all those bad feelings that is within that specific memory.

ako ang isang taong may short term memory lost pero pagdating sa mga ganyang bagay, isa ako sa mga taong mahirap makalimot.

kaya nga parang nahihiya ako humingi ng forgiveness sa prayer ko, hanggang hindi pa ako handa magpatawad.

haay naku mahirap pumilit ng ayaw, sana sa mga susunod na araw magiging madali na ito.

malapit na bday ko!

twelve days from now, i'll be celebrating my 23rd bday!

ang saya! another year has passed and andameng nangyare. marameng mga memories akong babaunin from 22nd year of my life.

many things have change, even my perspective in life has changed. even on the way i see people. as much as my experienced has taught me, i know i see better now.

mas kilala ko na ang mga tao sa paligid ko. now i am more careful and more considerate for other people. hindi na ren ako ganun masyadong nagtitiwala sa mga tao at bagay na dumarating sa buhay ko.

ganun pa man, masayahin pa rin akong tao. i would always be thankful for the small things that god has blessed me.

thank you!

in need of a better life?

i have been stressed out lately. i have pressured my self to study better this 2nd grading period. i need to alleviate myself from my mediocre grade.

My parents does not make think like this. They don't even care on what those numbers mean, i know all that they really want in the end is a doctor for a daughter. They don't really care whatever number would reflect on my transcript, all they want to see after are the initials M & D after my name.

My problem is not coming from my environment, but from the inner me that tells and believed so much as to the numbers i see from this papers. Actually, i should be far more concerned on wether i understand all of these diseases rather than believe so much on these results that would reflect only the proficiency of my memory or more specifically the ability to recall short term information.

but these numbers are my gauge as to whether i am doing my part as a student or not. These numbers tell me that i should work hard more and that i should not stop for the prognosis of my future patents is at stake.

too much the drama. well two hours from now, i would received one of the exam results. I am hoping i pass. i am hoping i pass.

as for my organization, there is too much work that we should be doing. and i hope my orgmates realize this.

as for the lighter side of life. all i want to say is that i will be waiting. I have done my part and now all that is left for me to do is to wait for you. I just want you to know, that right now there is nothing much i can do but this. It will be up to you to do something for us to take a step higher or elevate the level of our friendship into something more interesting. I hope that you would realize sooner, that you do not have to be better than me. There is no competetion here. For actually right now, with all the things that are happening, from all the things that you are saying you are actually one of my favorite guy in the world next to my father. i am not someone great nor perfect. i want you to know that, even if it is hard to beleive, that in this aspect of my life my wishes are simple. so please, get enough courage to approach me rather than confess all of these things to the people around us. please.